Missy's Journal 24

Oh... I've neglected you a bit haven't I blog... I guess I finally got addicted to Facebook and got lost amongst it...

Speaking of being lost... I've been falling apart quite a lot recently... I've been crying far too much and breaking down in front of my family. I've also not gone to TAFE this week.
I guess I just don't know what I'm gonna do in my life now... I'm failing TAFE 'cause I'm too depressed to get homework assignments done and it's stressing me out. I considered part time TAFE next semester but maybe I might just work for a bit without going to TAFE. I mean I don't really feel like dealing with it. Of course I still have to try and pass all I can now... But I don't even feel like I can do that.

And I don't know... I don't have any conviction for living here. I don't have passion in what I'm doing. I'd be happy to be a library technician, but that requires me to get through TAFE first. But there isn't any career I have a passion for. And that's my problem. I can enjoy life, but if I'm not supporting myself, I'm just a burden. And I wouldn't want that... And I don't even know how I could achieve that in any satisfactory way regardless...

I suppose I just need to relax... and think of what I'll be doing next rather than trying to plan my future 'cause I'm a drifter and I just need to wait for the opportunities I'm given...